Monday, 11 July 2011

i've just watched deathly hallows part 1 with my mum and have been taken back in time and getting extremely nostalgic for my childhood. i was trying to remember when i first got into harry potter, and it was in cannock. we had two women live next door to us, i only remember one of their names, louise, and me and my mum always used to go round and i remember one of them lending me the goblet of fire and saying they'd think i'd really enjoy it. its so strange thinking about it because i was no older than luke is now, and i cant imagine being that young and reading harry potter. then i started thinking about everything else in cannock and how so unreal it all seems now. i remember the school i went to, pye green valley, and my teacher miss orr and actually have people argue over who was friends with me on my first few days there. and there was a tuck trolley and a silly computer game that you played with the person next to you in the register. i remember i played against danny kay, he always won the game and i was the first person to beat him on it. and i think i had a little crush on him, i remember us chasing each other on the way home after school once. i remember my best friend, nikki smith, gave me a best friend necklack, it was in the shape of a heart, blue and sparkly and had dolphins on it... i think i've still got my half in my jewelerry box and i remember playing the top 40 chart in the garden on my little portable radio every sunday. and our next door neighbours dogs molly hooch and deefa. aand i remember always going to the library with my mum, we'd book half an hour slots on the computer and go on the beano website and play games and i was such a bookworm even then, i brought stacks of books home all the time, like matilda! haha. i remember a woman giving me 50p to get an easter egg once too, and i could actually buy one. then we moved back to weymouth to stonehill court flats, in wyke by the castle and overlooking the sea. i remember going back to my primary school to visit because id be joining again in year 5, and i remember seeing all my old friends and being so happy. there was a new girl who joined too called jodie, and i cant remember who it was but someone came up and gave me a smell gel pen and said it was from jodie, i had no idea who she was but we became best friends when i joined again. i remember borrowing pecan from jade, a bear beanie baby, and i used to go round the back of the flats and make dens and i had such a vivid imagination because i could spend so much time with that bear and grew so attached to it. i was so upset when i had to give it back to jade, so i went and bought my own pecan, but he wasnt the same because he's faced was lopsided and different to jades pecan and his fur was all soft whereas jades pecan was quite rough. and i remember getting all the harry potter books for christmas too. and i used to get robot wars magazine and fbx (for boys only) magazines and i remember drawing matilda the robot. and i remember that massive stick insect that we found over the kitchen door and being absolutely terrified and we had no idea what it was because it was far too thick to be a stick insect but it was really long too, my parents both said they thought it was from overseas and come in on a boat or something. i remember going to weymouth library too and being so excited when i turned 11 because i could finally get books from the red section and i read sabrina the teenage witch books loads then. i remember steve and julie coming over to the flat and lucy was so young and luke was still a baby. thats when we first started talking to them again.
but thinking back it all seems so so unreal, it feels like its a dream, i remember it all clearly but i remember it as if it wasnt me. i'd do absolutely anything to relive all that, or even to just see it again just so i can remember little things im sure im forgetting. like what my friends names were or what that silly game was or the books i read and just little things. its crazy how one thing i remembered has led to so much, and how now it seems like a completely different life, and how difficult its gonna be for me to snap out of this day dream now.

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